Going back to my early years...

I haven't blogged in a while, I have sort of been very lost in my own thoughts. Thinking I can handle it on my own...I'll figure it out...I'll be ok....I can do it.

WRONG!!

Why when we need our friends the most, do we clam up and stop telling them that we need help? Instead of running to our closest allies to hold us up, we would rather say "oh I'm fine" and hide it from them. And even worse we try to hide it from God. Like He doesn't know that we are struggling? DUH!

Anyways....that's besides the point.

I decided last night that I need some scriptures in my arsenal to help me through times like this. I will admit very fully that I am horrible when it comes to reading my bible. And yes I know that is wrong, and yes I know that's my sword....but I still stink at it. BUT....when I can study something specific rather than just read a portion, I actually tend to "get" it. So I am going back to school....each week I am going to pick a verse and learn it, really learn it!! Repeat it over and over to myself until its ingrained in there and I won't forget it. Until it becomes a part of me, and I feel it down in my spirit.

So for this week the verse I choose is perfect for how I've been feeling.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths."
Proverbs 3:5-6

This one is sort of a cheat for me because we sing a song in KidZone that is based on this verse, so I basically know it already. Or at least I know the words....but I want to get the truth of this verse in my heart. Not just repeat the words, but feel it in my soul.

We all know that He is there to guide my path, He has already chosen the way I will go. BUT here's the problem with that....I have to choose to listen and follow. Unless I have chosen to put down my thoughts, and my ways and truly follow Him...His plans for my are useless.

Just like in dancing...the man can be a fabulous dancer, know all the steps....but if as his partner I choose to try to do my own steps....it will never work. I have to relax, let HIM take the lead, and follow where ever He goes. Then it can flow smoothly.

This week I choose to allow The Holy Spirit to be my dance partner...I will stop my own advances, and allow Him to choose our direction, He will show me the way and and I decide to put me aside and just listen and go.